I am in bed. I am not awake .I am not asleep either. I have been staring at the popcorn ceiling for quite some time. Then I let out a big sigh, everyday has the same routine for one week now. Stare out the window, think about why God is hiding His face from me, yell at the birds, eat breakfast, sit at the park, come home, watch the news, curse the world, eat dinner and go to bed. I am a modern day misery, nobody really knows much about me, and the people that know me, probably don’t even remember I exist. I have cut myself off from all my friends.
On a normal day, I’d be having coffee with one of my numerous friends. We would probably be singing our favorite hymns and thanking God for being so good to us and for saving us. And if not that I’d probably preparing a sermon for Sunday. Yes! I am a preacher. If you had me preach, you would probably think that the sun rises and sets in my eyes. Think again. You know I could write this blog and paint a very beautiful picture of how close I am to God right now and how much I pray, read His word, and the likes
But who am I trying to impress? I am no seeker for jobs. No head has impressed me enough to be honored with such a lie. The truth of the matter is I have been struggling with God and I got t a point where I gave up. Have you ever tried to pray consistently for something and then you got to a point where you feel like God is not listening? I have.
That is why I am writing tonight?
Hopefully in this pursuit I will find God
Hopefully in this pursuit I will find God
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